I just ditched my blog sister's blog to create my own. I would like to say i dont know why i did but i do: because i had the urge to break away. That, i really don't know how to explain... maybe i need to get my voice out there and maybe because i feel different from who i was when i first started contributing to that blog.. and though it was meant to register the changes we would go through,... in my heart i just wanted a piece of independence from it. I am a bit sorry.
So here i am. Stupid blog name... though it is true. when i talk to myself (yes i talk to myself.. out and loud sometimes and i think it is a cool thing to do) and when i think it's always in english. When i pray, it comes out more sincerily if its english.. but my soul mate wouldnt understand half of what i say if i spoke english to him so i got to make the effort to get back to my origins and speak the mother language.
And thats one of the reasons why i created this blog. So that the boyfriend can read it and know me. Because i do express myself better when i write, i do let my feelings off a lot more, i am more clear, more sincere and open. And this way i can write it and let my heart speak its language, and the boyfriend can go on google translator and find out what the hell had i just said really. Saves a lot of trouble.
Plus i do feel you need to know me a little better, boyfriend. This might just be the way. Though i hate to admit that nowadays we need internet and blogs to get our boyfriend to knows us better. That the 2h on the phone everynight wont do it. I hate the way this world rotates and i am right now letting myself rotate with it.
Just felt right to do this.
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