Sauna

I like wet lips and sweaty tanned looking abs!
<3

one in 6 billion

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

By: Pink

When you think it over

The world is so complex it scares me. As a teenager you expect things to be complicated but you always hope that in the future, closer to when you start to drive and have your own credit card, everything becomes a lot simpler. But it doesn't.

One day you wake up wanting one thing and the next day another. One day you dream of an easy life and the next day you wouldn't mind if it were more complicated. Sometimes i don't understand who i am. And yes, i have just moved here, i am short on friends, i was used to a completly different kind of life but, i should be growing up too. Making up my mind should be getting easier. Readaptation should be smoother.

But instead of answers i find questions. And it's frustrating.

See one moment ago I was thinking being in a relationship is easy when really love someone. Just got to trust them and everything will be fine. But then comes.. wait.. no because nowadays the world has gone so mad that even if you are trully in love you have to be careful. And bieng in a relationship is never easy because there just so much to it. It involves two different people and atittudes and expectations that most of the time don't go according to plan. And one gets hurt and disappointed and sometimes there is just no turning back.

So what do we do??

I miss high school...

I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school.I miss high school...

I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.I hate Biochem.

I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.I want to go to the beach.

Genetics

Is the first subject i passed in uni :) The rest i will still have a go at it, 2 of which will be the last chance to pass them.

The cells failed me, but they failed 58 other people so :) And they failed me with 8/20 which isnt so bad considering.

I feel sad for posting about grades.. but it is the high point of my week right now... actually no thats a lie!! Yesterday i run for 20 minutes at 8.6km/h on the treadmill.. I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF. plus i got to kiss my wonder boy who i <3>

when i feel inspired i shall write something worth reading... in the meantime.. biochem!

Yet another FAIL!!!

twice i should say. from the 5 grades i got back so far, 2 are passing, 3 are failing... and today's exam was just.... incredibly challenging, to put it nicely!

next up: biochem :(

p.s I LOVE YOU, no matter what.

Biocel

I am in no way ready for this exam and i think i will never really be. People talk about the "law of detail" and ... there is just way too many details for anyone to possibly memorise in time for this stupid exam. ITS INSANE!!!

i hate cells!

And I HATE biology!

ARRRRRRRRRRG!

k... got to go back to work :)

bading badau

:)

i did not look at of think of cell organels for a WHOLE DAY!!!

But i know the secret now :

Left thumb up, Rigth thumb up, arms.... down, legs..... together, butt to the back, and bading badau, bading badau, bading badau... boom!

So you will know,

I just ditched my blog sister's blog to create my own. I would like to say i dont know why i did but i do: because i had the urge to break away. That, i really don't know how to explain... maybe i need to get my voice out there and maybe because i feel different from who i was when i first started contributing to that blog.. and though it was meant to register the changes we would go through,... in my heart i just wanted a piece of independence from it. I am a bit sorry.

So here i am. Stupid blog name... though it is true. when i talk to myself (yes i talk to myself.. out and loud sometimes and i think it is a cool thing to do) and when i think it's always in english. When i pray, it comes out more sincerily if its english.. but my soul mate wouldnt understand half of what i say if i spoke english to him so i got to make the effort to get back to my origins and speak the mother language.

And thats one of the reasons why i created this blog. So that the boyfriend can read it and know me. Because i do express myself better when i write, i do let my feelings off a lot more, i am more clear, more sincere and open. And this way i can write it and let my heart speak its language, and the boyfriend can go on google translator and find out what the hell had i just said really. Saves a lot of trouble.

Plus i do feel you need to know me a little better, boyfriend. This might just be the way. Though i hate to admit that nowadays we need internet and blogs to get our boyfriend to knows us better. That the 2h on the phone everynight wont do it. I hate the way this world rotates and i am right now letting myself rotate with it.

Just felt right to do this.